I'd be lying if I said that I didn't miss how things were. Because I do. You were always something anybody could get used to having around--almost like a security blanket that I ran back to whenever I felt that I was on unsafe ground, a constant reminder that whenever things would fall apart in my life, there would always be that one person who could make sense out of everything.
I listened because you talked with so much clarity, you always seemed so sure of everything, and I was the complete opposite--I was confused, conflicted, never sure of anything. I needed that confidence you always had, the self-assured way that you went about life.
I guess I was wrong. Because the last thing I needed, was to believe in empty words and promises. The last thing I needed, was to feel safe in a place that was anything but safe. The last thing I needed, was to feel things that would never mean anything in the end.
--05.12.11
